Jatle (please read)

Here is a little my explenation for how it's going lately and what i think that is also playing with:.......
(Tell me if i'm wrong about some things tho..)

Lately i'm just really stressed..
I need to find work feel pressured by my parents to find work..
It couses alot of tension in the family here,, couse it feels like everyone is in my neck about it..
I'm also trying to think of an education that i could do and i'm getting help with it..
The stress gets so bad at some days that i get all sensative about it and my emotions swing constantly and i can feel my body shaking sometimes..
I'm getting help now from others to relax a bit,, so i can think clearer about the above in this message..
Atm i can't really help you with the problems like i used to,, but i'm sure that i'll be able once i've managed to handle with the stress..
It's the same i have with others atm..

I use the roleplays to escape from reality..
It helps me to relax in some way..

I also have this idea that you use the reactions i use in the roleplays,, that you mix it with reality..
Like yesterday i made Doug like really mad at Frank and you suddenly keep appologising about that you were late..
That wasn't the point..
I was ok with it,, couse school goes first and i know that you would of texted me if you could..
Anyways,, like i said..
It's probarbly the stress..
You have probarbly loadsa stress in school and at home or in the family,, so that's why i came with the thing above this message..
I hope you understand..

xcutexangelx wrote:Jatle,,
This all isn't working..
Not like how we were yesterday..
We were both stressed out and have our own problems we're trying to deal with..
And discussing about it isn't gonna help..

Maybe it is best if we make some sort of agreement..??
The words we write and type don't always come over like we want to and maybe we should do like the next..

- We can talk about our problems,, but only if the other can handle it at that moment..
- Don't expect that the other helps to solve the problem,, but can have a say about it if the other wants to..
So like ask first something like: Can i tell my opinion (about this)..??
Or something like: Can i give you a tip..??
In that way we won't get our emotions too involved in our conversations,, but yet feel relieved in some way..

- To understand eachother better,, couse the age difference will always play a part....... we could try to actually talk to eachother..
(Couse different ages have different problems)
Wouldn't matter about what.. Can be random things..
- We could try to talk to eachother over the phone if it's possible..
Doesn't have to be alot.. Let's say........ Once in every vacation that you have..?? And if there are really big things playing like misunderstandings and other big things like that..


Maybe you have things to add too once you've calmed down with your mood..??
I really wanna solve it between us..

I noticed that we lately only talk about our problems and that we are expecting too much from eachother..
Maybe it can change if we talk about other things like we used to in the start and for the rest try to follow what we said..??
I don't wanna loose contact and i DO wanna meet you..
I'm trying my best and i know that your doing the same..
That's all we can do..

So...... what do you say.....
Shall we try to make a fresh start and try to follow what i said..??

This is all i can say and do at this moment......
The rest is up to you.....
Do you wanna make a fresh start or do you wanna stop every contact (for a while or forever)..
I'll be fine with whatever you choose..
Just let me know why you chose it..

I would like that

this the most

but this even more

xcutexangelx wrote:Here is a little my explenation for how it's going lately and what i think that is also playing with:.......
(Tell me if i'm wrong about some things tho..)

Lately i'm just really stressed..
I need to find work feel pressured by my parents to find work..
It couses alot of tension in the family here,, couse it feels like everyone is in my neck about it..
I'm also trying to think of an education that i could do and i'm getting help with it..
The stress gets so bad at some days that i get all sensative about it and my emotions swing constantly and i can feel my body shaking sometimes..
I'm getting help now from others to relax a bit,, so i can think clearer about the above in this message..
Atm i can't really help you with the problems like i used to,, but i'm sure that i'll be able once i've managed to handle with the stress..
It's the same i have with others atm..

I use the roleplays to escape from reality..
It helps me to relax in some way..

I also have this idea that you use the reactions i use in the roleplays,, that you mix it with reality..
Like yesterday i made Doug like really mad at Frank and you suddenly keep appologising about that you were late..
That wasn't the point..
I was ok with it,, couse school goes first and i know that you would of texted me if you could..
Anyways,, like i said..
It's probarbly the stress..
You have probarbly loadsa stress in school and at home or in the family,, so that's why i came with the thing above this message..
I hope you understand..

I have a load of things on me lately,, ones i can't lessen or get rid of and it's effecting me badly.

I don't have help with that.

That's why I started with the roleplays.

I hate it when you're right.

I had someone read our convo yesterday and he told me that i've let myself attach too much on you..
He said that it's ok to have good friends over the internet,, but you need to be careful with getting emotions involved..
He also said that you were being wrong..
You mixed up stuff and got mad at me for nothing,, but i took the blame and it wasn't needed at all..



I didn't wanna blame you when i looked back,, couse i knew that it was also partly my fault..
It didn't really start like yesterday,, but i think it started way earlier..

xcutexangelx wrote:

I had someone read our convo yesterday and he told me that i've let myself attach too much on you..
He said that it's ok to have good friends over the internet,, but you need to be careful with getting emotions involved..
He also said that you were being wrong..
You mixed up stuff and got mad at me for nothing,, but i took the blame and it wasn't needed at all..

I didn't wanna blame you when i looked back,, couse i knew that it was also partly my fault..
It didn't really start like yesterday,, but i think it started way earlier..

He's right about that.

I know..

sorry

Don't worry about it anymore..

okay