Hate to love you (roleplay)

*swallows and turns back towards him*

-bites his lips-


yes... it did feel good... almost as with you...

*feels like crap by the way he pushes her away*

*gets tears in eyes*

No matter what i'll do on the date..
It wouldn't be good enough..

-sighs and turns to her and hugs from behind-

it was no where near as with you...

*stiffens at his touch*

Please don't touch me, please don't..
Just leave me be..
I don't wanna burst out in tears..
Especially not around you..

*takes a few deep breaths to calm down*

you are my love...
and i love you no matter what we get through...

-kisses the back of her head-

*tears fall down onto the bed*

*is crying silently, no sob, no snif*

-caresses her gently-
-his hands on her sides and cheeks-

*hides face from him*

*just lets him do what he wants*

-feels her tears with his hands on the cheek-
-turns her to himself-

whats going on Alex?

*shakes head*

I don't wanna talk about it..

oh we will talk about it...

-sits straight-

we need to communicate...

Oh really......
What made you think of this now..
Each time i wanted to talk you ignored it and pushed me away..
Seriously..
Why now..??

*breathes a bit faster*

Do you want something from me..??
Is it somethign else..??

*sits upa nd and tries to get off bed*

what do you mean something else?

-frowns-

I don't know..
I'm sure there must be a reason behind your decision to talk now..

*gets off bed*

like what Alex...
tell me what do you mean now...

-sighs-

*sighs and doesn't know what to say*

*heads towards the door*

-grabs her by the arm and pulls-
-pins her down to bed and gets oon top-

you are not going anywhere...

now talk to me!

*body is shocking a bit becouse of crying*

You're always pushing me away when i'm trying to show any interrest or just try and get you to do something with me.....
It feels no matter what efford i try to do,, is blown without even you trying it..

*tries to breath before choking on tears*

Every time i dress up sexy for you is just seen as a hint to get a piece of ass..
I just want to look pretty for you and sometimes just begging for any compliment in that way..

*swallows*

......

-keeps listening her silently-

When we begun together i knew that you liked sharing me,, but whenever there is a possibillity you want to share me with others..
At times it feels like i'm not good enough for you..

Don't you ever have the feeling towards others like.... she's mine..
Hands off..
It's exhausting for me to keep having to pleasure others..

I feel like a damn protitute,, but then without the money..
It's not even the worst..
The worst is the way you make me feel when you see me with someone in bed..
You should have known from the start that i don't mean any harm with it..
I cheated on my girl.... with you..
It's looking for something i miss in my relationship..
To be honest..
I love you,, but i'm not happy at all..

I appreciate everything you do for me and that is why i let you do to me whatever you want,, but you don't see it that way..
You see it as,, i give something big,, i want somethign big in return..
I don't even know what you would want from me..
You never tell me..
You never talk to me..

Admit it..
If you look back on our relationship we had so far..
All we talked about is our past,, our sex fantasies and fucked eachothers brains out..
apart from shitty things that came inbetween that we don't have any control on..

.....
I just feel completely drained..

-sighs and falls next to her-
-almost crying-

*turns towards him*

Yet i feel like a complete bitch when i tell you something that is bothering you..
Why not just tell me if something is bothering you or if you havve some reason for your actions..

... i ... i cant...

i cant every reason to you... cuz that means invılving you into them...
i cant say i'll kill 3 guys today so im gonna rape you to make you stand away from me...

and you saying that i dont care about how you feel at all...
do you know how i feel when i was cheated?
do you have any idea after sayingyou forgot that "date" you would give?

do you have any idea seeing you fucking people here after leaving the house... it wasnt even 12 hours ago! but you just get into it...

I do know how you felt..
That is why i did my very best to make it up to you,, even though,, such things aren't able to make it up with anything..
I felt bad that i did such thing to you..

I forgot about the date becouse my mind was all fucked up,, Vince..
I was all stressed about the possibillity's of having a baby..
I'm shitting myself about it..

Yet when i saw the look on your face i decided to plan quickly a date..
First a sport together we wboth had to learn..... then a relaxing time at a spa..... a nice dinner and wonce back we'd only have to pack our bags and head here for a key to leanne's beautiful holiday place..
I was all excided that i had planned that much in such a short time..
I know that i shouldn't have said take it or leave it,, but you didn't even wanna hear any of the surprises i had planned for us vince..
You just completely shut me out,, got mad at me..

You send me out,, let me think we broke up..
I was devestated..
We went out... the 3 of us and when i woke up and Leanne was at work Maya woke me up with breakfast on bed and a filled bubblebath with roses to not make me feel lonely and get my mind of you..
I was damn heartbroken..
She cheered me up and so did Leanne..
Make me feel loved and it just got out of hand..
You come in and see me and blame me for things..
Seriously..
You had every right to be mad at me with Dave,, but i felt like how dare you to treat me like shit and then come here and say it was just a game to get me out to keep me safe..